Sometimes I wanna jump from
This tree that I've climbed up in
And trust that You will catch me
And keep me safe from harm
Oh, I want to let go
And trust that You are in control
Won't You take me and make me
Beautiful, beautiful?
Won't You take me and make me
Beautiful, beautiful?
Sometimes I feel like I am
Stuck in a hot air balloon
Floating through the open
and longing to be down with You
Oh, I want to let go
And trust that You are in control
Won't You take me and make me
Beautiful, beautiful?
Won't You take me and make me
Beautiful, beautiful?
Won't You take me and make me
Beautiful, beautiful?
Won't You take me and make me
Beautiful, beautiful?
This song brought me to tears last night. Its called Waltz in 3 by Shawn McDonald. And then on top of it about 4 songs later on the CD Roots, (that I was listening to), was this song!
There is a time to laugh
And a time to cry
And there is a time to accept
And a time to deny
There is a time to be strong
And a time to be weak
And there is a time to listen
And a time we must speak
For everything there's a reason
For everything there's a rhyme
For everything there's a season
For everything there's a time
For everything, everything
Everything there's a time
For everything, everything
Everything there's a time
And there is a time to say hello
And a time to say goodbye
And there is a time when that we are born
And a time we must die
And there is a time to build up
And a time to tear down
There is a time to be lost
And a time to be found
Everything there's a reason
For everything there's a rhyme
For everything there's a season
For everything there's is a time
For everything, everything
Everything there's a time
For everything, everything
Everything there's a time
One without the other
Is like a king without his kingdom
Everything works together
It all Coincides
For everything there's a reason
For everything there's a rhyme
For everything there's a season
For everything there's a time
For everything, everything
Everything there's a time
For everything, everything
Everything there's a time
Its called Time and it is inspired by Ecclesiastes 3. It just so happens to be a verse that God keeps dragging me to. I say dragging because I don't want to hear it anymore. Then He had to go and have one of my favorite musicians write a song about it! So at this point I am a river of tears! And I am saying "OK, OK, OK I get it God, I get it! But I still don't like it!!!"
So here I am feeling somewhat better. Still kinda in a funky mood, but in my heart I know that God is in control and I need! Need! Need! to seek him first and foremost. Everything else will fall into place if I place my trust in my Lord.
I have a "light bulb moment" last night. Where I realized that not that long ago in pray, I ask God that if my current emotional attachment to a certain boy were not meant to be now or even ever then I needed God to take them from me. Because I know that in my own power I can't remove myself from the situation. And looking back I am starting to realize that events of life were orchestrated in a way that gradually led to me and this boy not talking as much. And now when I talk to him its as if I don't have anything to say. Its very strange! So my "light bulb moment" was Maybe God has his hand at work here and it is all going the way he has planned. Maybe I am freaking out for now good reason and I need to just trust the Lord and accept the changes. Especially sense I ASKED for it! Anyway... after my reconnection with the Jesus, everything seems much clearer now!
As for the weight loss, I can't decide if I should join the gym or not. It expensive, but it might help, especially if I found some people to go with me!
4 comments:
Everytime I hear that song on the radio, I think if you cringing. Haha :) And in response to what you said about the boy, it's like Pastor Jon said, "In conflict (even if it's spiritual) pray for God's perspective." I know I need to do that more often.
My thoughts on the gym:
Unless you have a steady, stable workout buddy whose ready for a commited routine at the gym... you should wait to join.
First see how committed you are to the *free* elliptical. Get into a routine of working out, 30 mins, 4-5 times/week. Then decide if the gym is worth the money. Once you have a routine down, the gym will be more beneficial to vary your workout, and it will be easier to commit.
Being at the gym is great, but GETTING to the gym makes it difficult. You have to get ready, get into the car, drive there, figure out what to do with the kid, etc etc etc. There are more obstacles just to get to the gym than there are with your elliptical, so I recommend baby steps.
Starting Today! Go for it :)
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PS Do you want to do the Couch to 5K program with me? We might have to train separately, but we could sign up for a 5k together! I don't know much about it yet, but I want to do it!
http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/
2/2_3/181.shtml
It takes 2 months to get in shape for this. Well guess what, in 2.5 months is the Sound to Narrows 5k!
http://www.soundtonarrows.org/
Let's do this!!
Eccl 3 is among my favorites in the OT. I hadn't realized it, but I think that's sort of what happened for me, a sensation that this is The Time for me.
Thanks so much for sharing the song (I'd not heard of it) and for sharing your heart!
Hi from New Zealand.
Your life sounds very busy. I'm old enough to be your Grandmother and sadly battling my weight. I have something over 70lb to lose. My aim is to finally be at my goal weight in time for our 3rd trip to Nth America June/July 2009.
Have you thought of trying out a pedometer because you might be getting close to your 10,000 steps a day at work. That's basic means you have already achieved success in one area. Makes it easier to build the next step into your life.
Sending you a big Love Hug in Jesus Name.
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